The Emotional Body
The part of life, I will explore during this talk is the emotional body. The sensitive aspect of life that filters experiences, perceptions, and memories. It is like a reservoir of possibility mixing bits and pieces of experience coupled with emotions that trigger a response. It happens in an instant. Before you realize, a lifetime has happened and you wonder why you acted that way.
An experience happened to me one day; it colored my life a shade of gray. I could not discern what was good or what would harm me. This experience occurred at a time when I was very young. Too undeveloped to understand how to use my mind instead of letting other people’s words control me.
A young mind, that believed my parents loved and wanted what was best for me; a belief that they would never harm me. I held on to that story for such a long time and blamed myself if anything went wrong. It took all my strength to hold together a life. Fifty years later I uncovered my true self-buried under the difficulties of life.
The emotional baggage I held onto caused nothing but pain. Nonetheless, it was the engine that drove me on a journey to find happiness and inner peace. I striped my life bare then examined it, like looking under a microscope to discover the source of my suffering.
I found a big black hole that had swallowed parts of me and left a void. I tried to find love thinking it would heal my wounds. Only the relationships I entered in did not fulfill me. The hole grew so deep that it swallowed up my happiness. It was like trying to make life work that was doomed from the start.
Emotions control your thinking, behavior and the actions you take. They have a physical aspect as well as a psychological one. They are the bridge between thoughts, feelings and actions.
There is a relationship between emotional wounds we try to hide and the pain felt in the body. Pain will speak to you if you only listen. It spoke to me as pain in my hip. An impasse, filled with tension that was taking a toll on my healthy. My responses happened so automatically I was like a machine processing data in a mechanical way. I had to change my life if I wanted to be healthy and happy.
Some of what I felt was hard-wired to my individual brain. The other part belonged to the collective brain. The collective brain which is made of all the people and stimulus that had been in my life to include my parents and ancestors and extended family.
To act mechanically was acceptable behavior about one thousand years ago when fear was so real, the environment posed an imminent danger, and humans did not have the technology or sophistication that we have today.
My belief is that society and the environment has changed and we as humans have not. The wiring in our brains is out of date. We have to retrain our brain to adapt to the new society we find ourselves in.
Society teaches us to suppress our emotions and feeling as if there is something wrong with saying how we feel. Society say do not express your feelings because they are inappropriate or if you were to be express them, you would be dangerous and out of control.
What I would like to suggest is that left to their own devise or neglected emotions will be out of your control and disguised in some negative or inapprioate way.
Emotions act as a warning to what is really going on. They are the most reliable indicators of how things are going in our lives. Which mean they may need some special attention as much as we pay to physically training our mind and body?
When something happens in our lives, there is a feeling associated with the experience, be it pleasant or unpleasant. Then the experience floods through your emotions. Emotions and feelings are often misunderstood.
I have found a greater truth in my search to find happiness and inner peace. It was hidden behind the emotions that I held onto. There is Power in Purpose and when you find your purpose, you will have found the truth of your life and you will know peace and happiness.
I have begun to build a life that matched what I had been growing inside my mind. I cannot control my emotions, but I can examine them from a distance and not identify with them. This way I can manage my behavior and plan a better response.
Finding Power in Purpose is an individual journey that you take. It will lead you on an internal journey through your Mind, Emotions and Spirit.
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